Sometimes I can’t help but feel like I am not living the life I am supposed to live. That I am not my most authentic self. I feel like I have been keeping appearances all my life and it dawns on me every time I see other people unapologetically living their most authentic selves.
Don’t get me wrong. I have a great life, a beautiful family, a stable job and we get to have nice things. Some might even say it’s picture perfect. But I can’t seem to shake off the feeling that I am living somebody else’s life.
In my mind, I have a picture of what this “authentic” life looks like but I am not ready to admit it yet because I am afraid that I might be wrong. I am afraid that if I achieve what I believe is the life I want, it might not be what I expected and I end up becoming disappointed.
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